deuces...

so...here are 2 things I've been wanting to talk about for weeks now...first thing being...why do people lie? Especially to the ones who care for them the most...is it that they think they know what's best? Is it that they don't wanna hurt them or lose them? what ever the reason...it just goes to show human nature...we are all fearful of the future...no one wants to truly believe in anything wonderful again...it seems as though love just doesn't exist anymore...especially amongst my generation, only lies and shadows of it...(refer to my 1st blog about love) anyways...the most scary thing of all....is when I see people lying...to themselves....and doing it so well...that they even start to believe their own lie...and its becomes the truth in their own world...they've successfully convinced themselves of it and seek approval of others but only do so with the people they know will be easily influenced in doing so...this, so doing, they enable themselves to move on...as it may...from the situation from which they've formulated the lie for...and in the end clearing their conscience of what may or may not have been something significantly bothering them...this is one of man's greatest downfalls and as we all don't really have a way to counter it...especially when after we "run away from it all" and reality eventually catches up...thats when it smacks you in the face *wattap* you know its coming but you just couldn't prepare well enough for it...so to avoid this its pretty simple...hard at the same time ....but simple nonetheless....STOP LYING...be honest about your mistakes and even your short comings....those that forgive will remain there forever...those that don't....don't deserve to be around...forgiveness yes...even God has shown how well it works...


so my second thing is this...what is moving on? is it growing to become a better person?....or is it forgiving and forgetting and going back to the way you were?...cuz if what you were doing was right by you and by those around you...heck everyone's telling you that....should you change? should you be a different person to who you were before?....tough isn't it?....nawww....everyone will change over time...and everyone has faults....so all that bullshit about "I'm not gonna change for anyone and they shouldn't ask me too!" should be a thing of the past...we all need to change...at least changing out bad habits and stuff like that....so as I've been doing for the past few weeks....changing....it's me using what I've learnt....from all the mistakes of the past...(even the most recent ones)...to become a better person....but still retain the essence that is me...so to all those who wanna be delusional and think you're "perfect" just the way you are...umm....reality check!...YOU ARE NOT...and the sooner you begin to realize that...the sooner you can MOVE ON...be a better you...you may not have to go around posing as though you're so much better off now...cause if all you want is approval from friends who may not even be true friends...then you've done nothing but started digging a deeper hole for yourself to fall in...cause KARMA is a BITCH....being a better you could be on the inside...never has to be aesthetic...remember your mistakes, those caught in the cross fire, those you directly hurt and even the collateral damage...and seek to ensure you never repeat that again...not even a SECOND TIME...because when you look at the flashback of your life, you'll realize, and hearing another "I told you so" from someone just aint gonna cut it...

leaving you with these words...live life for God...not for you....not for the world and definitely not for your friends and family...and happiness will eternally be yours...